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enfinizatics · 5 months ago

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i’ve been really excited about finally renting my own apartment even tho it’s the tiniest, but some people are already so fed up with me talking about it and how i want to decorate it and?? it’s kinda bummed me out because i’m just so fucking happy about having my own room with a kitchenette and a bathroom. i’ve been renting rooms in apartments with up to 10 people for 4 years, i literally don’t have my own room at either of my parents’ apartments back ‘home’, i’ve been constantly moving ever since i was 11, and i’ve gone through times where i literally didn’t have my own space and slept in one bed with my mom. i literally have no sense of stability and ‘home’. please, let me have this one. let me talk. let me enjoy it.

#like #i get my neurodivergent hyperfixation might be a little overwhelming #but this is literally the first time when i will have my own space #i literally used to sleep in a walk-in wardrobe that was like 2 square meters at my dad’s bc there was no other place for me #when my mom ran away and finally came back for me i slept in the same bed as her for a year and a half straight as a 11-12yo #bc we had no money to afford a bigger place #i had one room that was actually ‘mine’ when my mom and her ex were together #but it lasted for 4? 5? years #and also it was an old room of the guy’s son who was a year younger than me and i felt bad about it #amd whenever he would stay for the weekend i literally offered him the bed bc i felt guilty #and then we moved again and again and again #so please. i just want to enjoy this one.#very personal #moira speaks

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